Now that all of my questions have been answered…

i should finally be able to breathe. i know i don’t always make the best or smartest decisions—results of thinking with my heart, while my brain vacations—BUT at least i live. i take risks, and i give everyone, even those who don’t deserve it, the benefit of doubt. It takes a lot of courage to do the things i’ve done in my life. So what if i cry everyday, tears don’t mean i’m losing. In fact i think it takes more strength to cry than to smile. Faking a smile through pain is something like human nature, most people do that but to disclose pain and be vulnerable should be commended. i don’t ever want to lose sight of who i am again. i don’t have to be anyone’s everything and i’m still special. i’m still the same passionate, fiery ray of sunlight i’ve always been, now with one less person to shine on and everyone else gets to be blessed with a tad bit more. You can’t give what people won’t receive, no need trying… especially when there are so many yearning to be recipients. How could i have ever forgotten, for one second, how special i am? Or what i deserve? Or what i’m worth? i’ve never been perfect, never even pretended to be but i am appreciated and loved by too many to sweat over one person’s failure to appreciate my intelligence and charm.

(flips hair)